….in the waiting….
I have to tell you. I’m discouraged. I don’t really know why. My husband is home. The kids and I are feeling better. I’m just tired and discouraged. I sit and read my bible and nothing. I pray..nothing. I sit down at my piano…perhaps I need to write….nothing. I pull out my guitar…nothing. Nothing..yet I feel deep stirrings inside. I feel like I have a lot to say. I feel like I want to say a lot to God. I want to hear a lot from Him. Still nothing.
I struggle through these “dry” spells. I’m always confused as to what the Lord wants me to learn… wants me to do. Is there sin in my life I have yet addressed? As of tonight.. I have no idea why it feels as though God has somewhat distanced himself. As I was playing my guitar today I was reminded of a song I wrote a VERY LONG time ago…I’ve never recorded it…(don’t really know why because of all my songs on guitar it’s my favorite musically speaking…) The Lord really gave me a sweet moment today. It was almost time to pick Will up from school…Josh was happily working on a puzzle on the floor and Emma Faye was playing with her little soft blocks beside him. I was able to sing and play this song in it’s entirety. It represents sort of where I am right now….and was an encouragement. I pray perhaps these words will encourage you as well.
“I’ll Wait” –jenny pruitt
The Lord is my light and my salvation
whom shall I fear
why, God you are my life
Though my enemies advance
I trust your plans
and hold Faith’s hand in mine
(CHORUS) I want you to know
I’m staying here with you
and I will be strong and wait for you, Lord
I’ll wait, I’ll wait
sometimes things can get so hard
too hard it seems
and I’m consumed by need
that’s when my heart cries seek His face
so your face I’ll seek
but don’t hide that face from me
(chorus)
without faith it is impossible to please you
I must believe you are the life, the truth and the way
for the one who calls is faithful
and He will do it…..He will do it
So for now I’ll rest in thee,
in thy love,
and in thy beauty
show me where to meet my sin,
to forget and forgive,
and fall in your mercy
(chorus)
